I'm back

I am back in the Ohio after spending a week in Honduras. I got to see the property where I soon will be living. Beyond excited for all that is to come. Seeing the property put things even more into prospective and made things seem even more real. I am really doing this!!! The place where i will be living and rasing these children is wonderful . It is a beautiful piece of property, it reminds me of a tropical rain forest. Flowers, fruit trees, chickens, and a horse all on the property. (well i am not too sure that there would be chickens and a horse in a rain forest but you get the point) There is life everywhere on the piece of land, and there are not many places in Honduras that are full of life. While I was there we had groud breaking for the orphange. It don't think that i can even begin to fathom or know all that God is going to do with this piece of land. Right now they are working on the duplex housing. This week i think that they are going to dig and pour the foundation for the orphanage. While i was there I spent every day but one working there on the property building the church on the property. Those who worked on the Santa Ana site earned extreme buff truck shirts. We were trucking it and putting it into high gear every day. Although the good news is that the church is up and built. All in one week we got the landed cleared, foundation dug and poured, and the blocks layed. The floor was also poured and the roof and the windows and doors where suppose to be put in the day i flew back, Saturday. Just seeing it all come together and become a reality makes me excited. Plans are under way for the artisian center for me Esperanza on the property. The clinic was to start being furnished. God is good! i know that He is going to continue to provide and piece things together one by one. I am just praying that self may not get in the way and that all fo the glory goes to Him. Continue to pray for the journey ahead. We are still needing money to build the oprhange. If there is any way at all that you can help let me know.

Casa de Esperanza

By the end of the calender year a childerns orphange (house of hope) will be opened up for little girls in Honduras. Little girls that have no family and can't remember the last time that they felt arms around their neck. What a joy and a honor it will be to be a mamma to so many girls. Most importantly i want them to see that they are someone and that God loves each and everyone of them. No matter what, it doesn't matter what they have been thru God loves them reguardless. I don't even know at times how i am going to help some of them with what they have went thru. I don't even think i know or understand the things that these little girls have been thru. Some of them a such a young age have sold their bodies so that they may feed their bodies. Some have even been rejected by their families b/c they don't have money to take care of them selves more less a child. So they send the child off on their own with no where to pillow their head and no food to feed their bellies. I am just trusing that God will use me how He wants with each and every circumstance with these girls. I know that God has called me to go so here i am and i know that if i am open to Him that He is going to use me in great big ways for His kingdom. He already is.....
Continue to pray for me and the sweet children that i will be ministering too. I just pray that i can be His hands and feet.

oh the memories

This weekend i had two different opportunites to share honduras experiences. A few of us went friday night to a small youth group and shared with them the ways God had worked on our hearts, as a result of Honduras. Oh it was some good times and the kids there were so ever encouaging. They have big hearts for Jesus. Then today was our first time that we got to spend time with some of the people that we went on the Honduras mission trip. We had a memorial day, Honduras cookout(wasn't to much of a cookout b/c of the rain). It was a good time to reflect back on so many memories and be with some sweet people who mean so ever much to my heart. Oh how we would all love to be back there doing it all over again. To see everyones pictures and the sweet memories that they all brought back. I can say that a few of them did bring tears to my eyes. It is almost like it is a mourning process for me. I weep so much over those little kiddos and the ways that they touched my heart. Then we got to spend some time together as a group and we sung some songs and prayed and shared what was on our hearts. These two seperate occasions this weekend, i have had time to look back and see what God has done and the ways that He is continuing to work. God is so good! I am so excited for the journey ahead. Just to think that in a few short months i will be a country that stole such big pieces of my heart. I am giving up everything that i have ever known to go where the doors have opened and where God is leading me. How could you say no to this MAN? i can't and that is why i sit here before you ready to embark on a journey that i don't exactly know what it entails. i just know that He says follow and i say, "Here i am Lord send me." Sometimes that even means going blindly and not knowing all that is about to happen. Just trusting in a Great BIg God who knows what He is doing!

listening

Right now i in such a state of confusion. My emotions are in so many different directions. I just feel as if i am being called by God to do mission work. It is so hard to get all of the lies that satan sends and all of the other junk out of my head and just listen to God. I just need to be still and know that He is God......and listen. It just seems that I am sometimes in such a hurry that I miss out on the wisdom God speaks to my heart, if I will only be slient before Him. It is often in the calm and quiet of His presence that He speaks the loudest. I am just learning more and more everyday to wait on His presence. I just wish that things could be so much easier and that He could just put a BIG flashing light out there that says this door or a great big yes or no. Although He sure does show us what He wants for us and where He wants us, but the question is are we looking for Him and seeking Him so that He can show us. Or are we too busy with the things around us to even see what He is doing. Take time and soak up in His presence. Let the relationship you have with Him be so very real. He loves each and everyone of us so very much, more than we can even begin to fathom. Every minute we as His children spend with Him, He soaks up every minute of it and adores us as if we were His only child. Are you listening to Him? Take time to wait and listen to Him,who is the answer to all of our needs.

I am yours.....

Lord i just come to you tonight and saying that i am yours. I want to lay everything down at your feet. There are just so many things that seem to get in the way. I ask that you help me to stay strong and help me to stay focused on you above all else. It is so easy to get distracted by all of the things around me of this world. Satan is so good at telling me lies and getting me to believe them. Lord give me the discernment that i need and let me be yours completly. Let me lay everything at your feet and just be emptied. I thank you for being the great and awesome God that you are and loving me no matter what. There sure is a bunch of yucky stuff I bring with me at times but you still reach your arms out and love me. I just can't fathom how someone like you loves me the way that you do. Let me grow in my love and have that same love that you have for me for others but above all else let me grow to love you like never before. Thank you so much for listening. Also thank you for working on my heart the way that you have lately. You have broke it and molded it to make it look more how you want it to be. Continue to let me be yours 100% so you could have your way with me. I love you so very much! Yearning for more of HIM